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intro
02:40
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(instrumental)
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2. |
father's day pt. 2
03:20
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Terrified i open up my arms and missed you coming closer
All the while i am wincing with apprehension
Fearing I was far too close to
Becoming a part of someone
When i have become so stubborn
And complacent with being no one
When i thought i'd look again i noticed you were even further
Turned away in thinking that i did not want to see you
At least at the time i thought that
I could climb a mountain if i
Tried and never gave up walking
But some climbers aren't enough
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shadowlawn
01:18
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I don't know if you felt what i felt
but i've been really fucked up since that day we talked
And i tried to view it calmly but
when i get really caught in someone it's hard to make it stop
And since last week or so you've been in every dream
that i had i think that i just want to see you more
in each one i fuck things up but when i
turn to you you smile
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I would do anything if i could only see you
All of my friends were telling me to meet you
And it's insane to think that you might think of me
And I can't say my thoughts how i want them to be
If love is really nothing but a chemical reaction
And appearance isn't everything that causes attraction
Then i was made in every way for someone else
How can you say you know when you can see yourself
I will say i'm happy but i'm doing this for nothing
If they're all working well then they've all got something
And i'm patient and i know that mine will come
But it's been forever am i just being dumb
I would do anything if i could only see you
All of my friends were telling me to meet you
And it's insane
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5. |
nosferatu
05:09
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I leave you
I fucked it up again
Something's weird
I can't shut up again
I'm anxious
I'm gonna die again
But i'll be born
And i'll still try again
Like Dracula
I will open up my jaws
I'll scare you
With my stupid voice and claws
And when i leave
You won't talk to me again
You'll believe
You and I were never friends
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6. |
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(instrumental)
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7. |
boy scout
06:09
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and none of the pills that i've swallowed
can bring me back to life
can bring me back to life
and i couldn't make the off ramp
so i just turn off the headlights
so i just turn off the headlights
what do you think of me
what do you think of her
i can wear different clothes now
and i can tell that you're hurt
and i just seem to drag you
You know i didn't mean that
I feel so fucking weird now
i feel like you were so bad
and saying the okay i stutter
and i can't seem to breathe
and they want me to speak
and a few hours later I'm sobbing
and walking down the street
i stupidly feel relieved
it's not like this will change me
i know that it's a huge step
maybe i'll go next year
or the year after that
you can see right through me
you're really good at doing that
i wish i saw through you
there'd be so much to look at
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8. |
the judas
06:07
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When i die
I'll be the only one
That's with me
And that's fine
I'll be calm
And fall asleep in bed
And dream of
My best friends
I don't think
You will be on my shore
You might be
But who knows anymore
Either way i'm fine
I only care what you think
If you leave
I'll be okay
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9. |
alone
03:31
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If I was with you i'd be a world away
Running around because i'm trying to find a place to stay
You mean the world to me tonight
And it's kind of on you if you don't want to treat me right
And right now i'm trashed because i lost my job
I really only need it for the alcohol
The things i've done to get next to you
All i really need is just to see things through
And who knows
You might be the one and i'd be your lawful husband
Maybe you'd set me free again
And someday
I could be beside you looking at our children
I'll probably talk to you again
I hope i talk to you again
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10. |
i'm glad i almost died
05:37
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Whenever i get drunk
i yell a lot and i am sorry
I hate acting like that
But when i'm sober i can't talk to you
the way i want to
The way drunk me can
But ever time i wake up
i still think about the last night
the last night the last night the last night the last night
It's such a bummer how i
can't have fun without being sad
I still remember that mistake i made from that night
This moment's powerful
I say that all the time but i mean it now
I'll remember this when i'm an old man
Sitting here and looking at the town
With all of my friends
I wish i could talk to you like they can
And is it bad to wait to ask this long
I don't think so
For better or worse i want to make this right
The only issue lies in what i should do now that i am prepared
I really just want you to trust me
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god's eye
05:04
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i'm coming back
i know i know i've gone so far
but every time i take a step
it makes me feel insane
and is it real
i can't even tell anymore
but every time i take a step
it makes me feel the same
and you're my brother
and though at times i miss you man
i know you got your happy life
and i am making mine
lets make it back
i know the journey sounds so far
but if we rest a little every night
I'm sure we'll be just fine
(2 loops pass)
so hear our cry
and all you daughters and you sons
can be the greatest generation
if they show you how
and as we fly
we run until our legs give out
collapsing laughing to the sand
we all just yell aloud
the pioneers
the architects these awful men
we're etching faces in the earth
forever kings of here
the sun is rising
we grab our guns and run again
awakened from our blissful rest
to start a brand new year
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12. |
the guy i like
02:43
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(instrumental)
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13. |
we're all smiling
08:00
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I hope you heard me
I don't want you to worry
I hope you heard me
I don't want you to worry
I hope you realize
everything i own is tied to you
i want to publicize
I only want what's right for you
But down inside, down inside i know
I know you'd be alone
Down inside, i want to hide myself
I should ask myself
Would I be giving up the things i love
I'm worrying about all kinds of stuff
I'm still the stupid kid you used to love
If i ran away i'd say goodbye to you
Wouldn't hide my face i wouldn't lie you
And i can't tell you
Looking back on older photos trying to
Shoulda seen how bad it was
I tried to keep it deep inside but
All the things that
Make me happy
Brought on by your
Simple laughing
If i could i'd run away with you
But i can't help this
Awful timing
I admit i'm
Fucking crying
Were all smiling waving bye to you
To you
To you
To you
To you
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Ashes Jessen Billings, montana
struggling musician
experimental pop
born in billings mt
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